Dear, When I found out that you my husband of 8 years, had been viewing pornography for many years, it devastated me. You lied to me numerous times over the years when I asked you if you looked at it. When you couldn't perform sexually, I asked you again, and you could always lie and say no. This hurts me to my core. My self – esteem has been crushed. My love for you, as you know, is very strong. And I know how much you love me. I know you say you were ashamed to tell me, and feared I would divorce you, but I wish you could've said something. I could've helped you overcome your sexual addiction. I am so grateful that it was exposed because you were able to get the help and counseling that you need. After dedicating your life to the Lord, I have seen immense changes in you. You are a new man. You went from being a cold husband, to one of the most loving and caring people I know, since then. I am grateful to God and to your counselors for helping you heal. I feel like we are newlyweds again, and cannot wait to see where our marriage will go from here. Please know that if this ever happens again, I am not sure if my heart could take it. But my prayers are that you continue to go to your counseling and continue seeking God and his healing. I cannot imagine my life without you in it, and I don't want to either. Love - Me