“To My Dear Husband, My Kindred Spirit, How I miss you! You left this earth 4.5 years ago…”

To My Dear Husband, My Kindred Spirit, How I miss you! You left this earth 4.5 years ago. I don't think I will ever get over the loss of you, my best friend. I often think of that horrendous time that you picked up the alcohol, after 19 years of sobriety. I feel guilty that I didn't stop my foolishness that you said made you start drinking again. Although your Alcoholic Anonymous friends told me that it wasn't my fault that you started drinking, I will never lose that feeling of guilt. But I must remember of how we had grown apart and that was the trigger for me starting a relationship with that other guy. What a waste of time that was! I would give anything to have you back here so I could apologize once again, and we could celebrate a sober life together. I will never forget our wonderful relationship before all the insanity began. Love, Your Best Friend.