But, Ollie Bug, I got him okay? I got your bubby. I will hug him twice as much for you & me. I love him to the moon & back just like I love you. FUCKING FOREVER! I will love you both. I am really good at living, always have been. Pretending I got this. I DON'T GOT THIS! Not losing you. I will cry over losing you until the day I die. I’m so scared of not being able to hear your voice, your laugh.